This is how the way it goes.
You had such an awesome day because it started wit him.
Went out all the way to that far place just so you could call him again at night.
Went out all the way there just so you could hear him.
Went out all the way there despite being exhausted and beat after a tennis selection and already skipped dinner.

I sacrificed all that...
then came to a point where I knew the answers to that questions.
That those are simply my mussings..

The next thing you knew he started thinking it was doubtin questions.
But no, they werent.
I was asking those questions with much delight cz for ONCE, I knew I was in love...
That I really appreciate this person..
but no... it wasnt all lovely in the end.

He told me what he felt when i said those or whenever I said those.
Doesnt he even see that I, myself is already hurt?
That, when I apologised I meant it with all my heart and hoping he didnt take them seriously.
Sadly he did. And no matter how many I say, "I'm Sorry. I didnt mean it"
He just wont listen....
He misunderstood me.

I wanted so much to just talk to him..
Tell him how my day went..
but no, it ended sourly..

Next thing I knew he made me realised I ruined his day.
Well, what about my night?
Didnt he realise he did the same?
That already, Im tight with schedule and money, but sill Im making ways just so I can reach him.
I ensure that he's in the comfort zone...

I'm down now.
He left...
I didnt say anything.
I just found myself hurting and cried...
Didnt wanna do anything with watever anymore.

But no...

Ive gotta pick myself up.
Make MYSELF happy, because no one else can do that but me.
I'm gonna dance tomorrow and give it all I can
and most importantly, smile....
and pretend everything is alright...

Beneath my smile, lies a soul that cries.
I came up with this line since my bestfriend left.
The hurt won't last a day... it lasts as long as its not recuperated.

with this, I cradle myself to sleep.
Harsh now, my heart...