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lundi, février 22, 2010
Reality Bites
12:38 AM
So I have to be honest to myself and to us. I just realized that once more, I don't wanna be treated this way. I told you I needed you today, that very moment, but you weren't there. You'd rather do something else. I realised I am not important as compared to your paper work. I needed you now, you weren't there. Had a usual tiring day at work. I decided to drop by the library near your home cz that's where I needed a book I had to borrow. I was so happy to know you're gonna meet me there... I played the game of "look for me"... Gave you clues to where I was... But you said you're heading to popular first... so buying your stationary was the reason why you ended up meeting me. You texted me too saying you had to head to do your inventory... And when we finally met, there was a pause... We acted as friends, just friends. No kiss, No Hugs, no sweet moves. I thought we could just talk... catch up. But I was just there to keep you company -once again. You told me to go home when we just met. I said I wanted to spend time with you... You said You've to do your inventory... So to be just where you are, to just catch up, to just feel you close, to just fill your sayings that you miss me, I went to where you needed to go. So you were done... You walked me to the bus stop just to realised in the end that you're not seeing me home.. because you had to re-do your inventory list. Barely having 10 items in there, that was more important huh? I know you're to re-do the layout... Is that gonna take days to complete that you can't even spare me an hour to see me off? I thought you said you missed me... now I know theyre plain bullshit. At the bus stop I took the courage to open up to you, all the pains, all the disappointments... You knew your weaknesses... are you gonna work on them or just let it slip and slip? I don't wanna be treated this way anymore. I'm getting tired of travelling just to spend time with you, just to work things out. I don't feel loved, I dont feel cherished, I dont feel important, I don't feel like I am your girlfriend... I think I'm just one of those girls you had where you needed a gap to fill that space you have. Ayaw ko na... I dont know what you're doing. Whenever I get to, it's all been planned and all you had to do is carry it out. You dont like my romantic-comedy movie flicks, well, that's what you need to learn! I am tired of the initiatives of texting you -your whereabouts, what you're doing, i miss yous, i loveyous, greetings of the day... I am tired of the sacrifices, I ran out of energy. Way too long, now that w're going 2 years, I thought a relationship should grow deeper, sweeter, stronger... but you're not doing you're part and I am sickly of it all. It's your turn... just don't be surprise when one fine day I am telling you my flight is in an hour's time... where all I had to do is carry it out like how you've always been doing. A heart breaks into 2... I realised, I thought love's you + me... but I cant see you. So there's no wonder woman do not go for younger lads... yes they do date... just because they want their sex life to be active. I watched Lipstick Jungle. Not too bad a show I learnt and realised something regarding my life. mardi, février 09, 2010
tuesday, 9th Feb '10
11:08 PM
I am currently listening to Chris Brown's single, Crawl. I first heard it from Kina Grannis, then I had the original played on a replay. Today started off with a joke at work. Cz I wasnt due to work. I thought the monthly schedule was fixed, like how last week proved that to me -I was wrong. I got myself an all time favorite, blueberry muffin, well-toasted with 2 1/2butter and jam. hehehe :) I had a bite of "dhal wrap bento set" but it just didnt allure my tastebuds. I did ate the leafy salad though and for a moment, I felt like an animal in a ranch. haha... cz i was really eating just leaves and this vinegar that came with it. It stinks when left for too long. it can cause air pollution in a room, swear! haha. And then.... Karen decided she got the chance to actually buy her contacts. My glasses are terrible at work. They are not for service at all. So I headed at Yishun, got 3 pairs of them for a value of 35, not too bad, cz its 15 a pair. Then i decided to pamper mahself a lil... so i headed at where our cuzzies have our eyebrows done :) Did alil window shopping, went home on an almost rainy day. I called sch for enquiries about the tests and they were not much helped. she literally didnt answer me and left me with 2 words, shall we say "key words?" "Creativity and Sketching... just bring your materials stated in the paper." -asst. crraaap. duh. like all of beyond those words are artsyfartsyness. i mean, its the slightest dash to describe art. moving on... i was to go gyming with mates and a swim daw. so i had an hour to nap which ended 2 hours, got lazy so stayed home. hahaha. i played half of the song "glitter in the air", yey!! Brilliant! there's the part 2 of his video... i havent gotten around there cz i became hungry and i decided to do sketches. :D Yey! i got to do 2 sketches from catalog! hehehe... there was an urge to draw HIM since ive not completed wat i wanna give him. :P so from 8 till now, 11pm, that song is on a replay. we gotta sleep by 1130. im wrkin on straight days again. Lord, increase my strenght and love! hehehe. Goddblessy'all! lundi, février 08, 2010
8th Feb 2010
11:57 PM
"Who is it that you're coming home to, how does it feel like to hold you?" lalaang.. i tend to listen more to love songs just to ease the pain. You gotta watch Pink's performance during the Grammy's. I am not a fan of hers, but after that standing ovation and raved performance, I am starting to notice her. I loved her "Glitter in the air." I listened to her Funhouse album and actually liked it. Funny how "Please don't leave me" single got stuck in mah head right after my nap today. I am considering of getting her album... buh... there's a want of me to get an ipod nano... damn. 288!! heeeeh. or iphone nlg? its Feb na. I am missing school. Ive tests to sit for 3d design on the 20th. I need to change working days for that. and also for the fashion merchandise on the 3rd march. ive to apply for dae this week. i need to get my art supplies. i need to stay focus and stop being distracted esp emotionally. cz if these doesnt work....i'd go for that last resort. which, apparently, i am kinda looking forward to it. I miss my bestfriend. I miss the everyday talks... |
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