It's 140am my dear folks!

hahaha..

thanks for reading my entries.

pls comment to urge me on posting my thoughts.

ahahahahaha.... ;)

(well, it wont matter that much cz ive got the power of choice. =D

as everyone is.)

so today...

just wanna blog cz this is an extra-ordinary day to me.

le8oct07. =D

i was asked to work the night before.

Got the sms minutes to midnight.

and well, i was asleep na before even 11pm on the sunday.

can't believe that cz i usually sleep like 1am or 2am or sometimes

even later cz... i dont know why... the vacation mood just let me be.

oh shit... it has to stop cz im gonna be back to sch next week!

yey!!!

so anw.. i replied and then at 430am, monday, i was awake.

haha... i enjoyed the crisp air of the morning. i hope ive been enjoyin that

and wat more, to really exercise in the start of the day...

(and I will enjoy the mornings. Besides, it’s the start of the day.

Ive this habit of just gazing in the sky and breathing in the wind or air

While still in bed… =) and that shud remain. It’s a good habit. Cz in the end, i

Find myself smiling with content of a start of a new day.)

i was told to work. he said his gratitude.

went to work. took the cab. (as always. ugh.. it has to stop. Its been a week na.)

twas raining in town then.

twas the same store but the place is more organised now cz we have a

new store manager.(SM). he's a filipino too and hey... this man is another person i really

look up too.

Hey dear Lord, thank you for lettin me meet this man. =)

He wasnt the MOD (manager of the day) for the day.

was a lil dismayed. i was a lil relieved too cz i was late for few minutes.

haha....

there was a lil trouble of me lookin for the green aprons cz the place is

TOTALLY NEAT! OMG... AS IN!!! heehehe...

and i feel really more motivated and ive this feeling of lightness

when i stepped inside the mini wrkplace. (mini? I felt the place was bigger than usual.)

i remember him saying in the meeting last Weds,

"our place is really small.. but i believe if we really throw the things

we don't really need, im sure we'll definitely have space."

awe... and hey, what he said was true man! hehehe..

grabeh. kahanga hanga talaga sya

ok... his name is Noel. =)

He came down that rainy day anyways and i went home with him!

yey! hehehe..

well, he initiated and he was leaving anyway on that time when i finished my shift.

When at first, i was asked to wrk,

since its him -its a new SM, which means uve to showcase

urself a.k.a show him who u really are to him...

u know, like first impressions..

im really SCARED.

i mean, i hate to think that this guy has to know

and will eventually know that im really a late comer.

and i hate that..

(bcz I know he’ll be turned off and that he’ll take action.

I don’t wanna be terminated! Ugh! Hahaha…)

ahahah... even though ive to hide it, it will eventually show through my actions.

so erm... yea, i was anxiously worried about that.

and i know, ive to change.

like shit, ive been telling myself to be punctual

in other occasions too but, what the heck, Karen hasn’t really improved.

aheh...

so moving on.

i was blessed to have that opportunity with our SM.

ok lah... despite his not- so- straightness, i really look up to him.

he's a man who has so far, proved my sentence true,

"someone who displays his actions more than his words."

and if ure alert enough, ive said that in my friendster profile on

whom i wanna meet.

all the while on our trip back home,

since i was to alight first,

i took the opportunity of connecting, discovering and learning. =D

i asked questions and he did too.

and the more he answered me, the more i was inspired

and made me reflect on myself.

(gawd.. and I was listening to myself too. I made sure I made sense n it was a smart answer somehow. Omg!!! So self-conscious.)

ahahaha...

i compared myself to him.

i compared what I lacked.

i wanted to learn from him.

I wanna learn from him.

he's a man who first intimidated me,

but now, he's a man i look up to..

sadly, he thought of resigning.

hay nako, people, mahirap talaga magwork sa fastfood.

HRM pa course nya.

I see him whipping his tired face again and again..

wish i could do something but hey,

he was really tired and i think he needs a getaway holiday.

He is very organised.

as in, VERY!!!! (ive said this. Omg. Haha)

hehe..

and he even said in our meeting na, he's a

"Compulsive-obsessive person."

i dont honestly know what dat means, but anw..

tell me if u know.

ive yet to find out cz it keeps runnin out of my mind.

he meant the positive side of that. =)

i can really testify that he is..

cz when he conducted the meeting,

his things,

his papers,

the way he holds them up,

the way he flips a page, the way he clips them up...

grabeh talaga!

as in,

ORGANISED NGA!!!!

and then today... that was even more proven.

He came down to our store during his off day.

and he said he usually does and he really is.

omg... haha... inspired nanaman ako!

(or am i just being naive??? Nooooo!!!!... hehe)

he was carrying this red notebook with him.

he went to the counter where my partners and I are standing at.

one partner took hold and touched his notebook.

really looks neat.

he has all those page dividers of many labels.

since my partner touched it, i did the same!!!

haha..

i saw the many types of labels from the outside more clearly now.

it was no other ordinary notebook.

it was starbucks notebook.

he has this male wire-mesh bookmark thats yellow! =D

hehehe..

his notebook is colorful.

and then...

well, he took it nearer to his side. ahhh.. sayang.

hehe..

so on the way home..

he shared me his experiences.

he recently just terminated one of our partners.

huhuhu... grabeh tong lalaking to!

He cant wrk in a rowdy, undisciplned store.

He takes actions talaga.

He confronts you.

He likes face to face confrontation.

He doesn’t gossip.

He doesn’t torelate gossips.

He likes to be always being challenged.

He quits his job if the challenge has stop.

He tells u what’s wrong and warns you about it

He advises you.

He supports.

He lays the rules and he sets a good example.

He’s a hard worker.

He’s a smart, fast learner.

He speaks malay!! And omg... he's barely a year in singapore

and he knows phrases of malays.

(oh shit ka! hehe... talino mo!)

den... he told one of the trainees to go home

cz shes not properly attired! wth..

grabeh ah...

dami dami pa...

well, hindi madami, yan lang napansin ko sa store.

when i saw the store...

how freakingly neat and organized it is now...

I WANNA DO THE SAME TO MY ROOM!!!!

(one of our partners said, get him to clean up and organize my room. Ahahaha..)

ive been deciding to rearrange n make my room cleaner anyway since last week but wtfreak...

ive not done so...

and esp my clothes! hehe..

my mom got me clothes and there are some which ive yet to try.

there were so many... they were just piled up on this box..

until it went like a mountain and mom eventually placed them in

my luggage! omg... haha.. and that luggage, now is all, tornado- case- scenario.

hay... =)

im gonna do that tmrw! i mean, later!

hehehe....

then... wat else?

this entry is freakin long na, ure still reading.

thank you. haha.

At home, kiz's mom and fren was here.

they talked abt relationships and i joined the conversation in the end...

this is more like in the point of view of a woman. (well not really. I still believe that we are all the same. Somehow.)

during the conversation i felt these women as my barkada and not my mom,

nor my tita nor my ate.

1. they told me na, there are 2 types of guys.

2. na around, 25 thats when the men start to be serious.

3. mom rebukes, "it depends." (i'll just write wat had outstanded me.)

4. that, if the guy really dotes and loves you, he'd be a man of his actions.

5. he'll court ur parents too not just you.

6. kungmag ddate kayo, sa bahay ng girl dapat.

7. and those women believed that when a couple is alone in a room, when they do NOTHING (as in no sex lah), thats a true testify that the boy respects the girl.

8. the boy has to meet the parents first.

9. the boy has to go to the girl's place to ask if he can bring the girl out.

10. the boy should always respect the girl.

11. dont always fall in love 100%.

12. give ur 30%.

13. friendship is different from relationship.

14. our frens tend to have more time on relationship cz they make it as a priority than to their frens/barkada. (how sad naman! hmph!)

15. first love and last love is rare.

16. he shouldnt push you.

17. he shouldnt say, "if u really love me, prove it to me..."

18. "virginity before marriage." it depends on the person's belief. It’s not the in thing. It’s not because “every one is doing it.” “it’s not because “hindi na uso yan”.”

19. mom advised me to write down wat im lookin for in a man... and if he doesnt pass even the last thing im looking for, he isnt the one. (woa… hirap ah. Sounds like a real task eh?)

20. if the relationship becomes stronger when you are together as time goes by, its true love, if it wanes and gone, be prepared to cry. lol... well, they said he’s not the one.

21. some guys look for something... and if they got it(virginity!), they'll leave you and look for another... (im so tired of this cycle to be honest -Breaking up and then a new one again. sucks lah. esp to count and remember all ur freaking exes. ugh! kainis. even if u dont want to remember, it becomes automatic. and gee, who likes to anw? Sheeze. Just stay virgin, ok girls? =D)

22. if ure attractive, u’d have a headache cz uve many admirers.

23. don’t go for the looks because the personality is more important.

24. treasure ur virginity. He should respect you for that. He should wait.

25. don’t love him so much. Leave a portion for yourself.

Yan nlg. Dami na eh. Heh..

I asked mom why we don’t talk about those…

I mean, we do, but not so much as that…

She said we did… thank you mama. =)

And yes, I’ll open up even more.

It’s sad to think that I went through my breakup alone.

Ha-ha. But hey, thank God I was strong enough. =)

So that’s it. =)

Thanks for completing what I’ve written.

Cheers my friend~*

230am. Le9oct07.