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jeudi, juillet 26, 2007
Impetuous emotions
10:44 PM
 Saving Grace -Hillsong Verse 1 Night and day I seek Your face Long for You in the secret place All I want in this life Is to truly know you more... Verse 2 As the waters cover the sea, So Your love covers me Guiding me on, Roads unknown I trust in You alone (2x) CHORUS My Saving Grace My endless love Deeper and deeper I'm falling in love with You My one desire My only truth Deeper and deeper I'm falling in love with you Verse 2 CHORUS with you.. fallin' in love with you... ohhhhh... BRIDGE And I will rise on wings of eagles Soaring high above all my fears I rest in Your open arms of love CHORUS (2x) As the waters cover the sea So your love covers me.... covers me... -------- when i first sang this song... i was torn between connection. Im not sure if its God im singing or yearning to... or was it someone to make me feel as mentioned... and years of not attendin the church which exposed me to those, it still gives me the same stinging emotion despite having someone. cz maybe i still feel that it's not there. that its missing. it once was, it is there, just that ... it doesnt feel real... im torn... im lost... sometimes. my impetuous feelings gets me all fickle minded. i dont understand why i feel this way. ive also learnt something about myself. when i get close to someone, i tend to fall. nevermind his flaws, cz he's always there. (but can i count on him?) seeing my relationship, the only way we really get close is through Ym and misscalls. i hope he occupies as much as he can, but he doesnt. and when he left those pits open, i tend to fall in them... i dont know who's goin to catch me in the end... im replaying this song again and again continuously. again and again that im gonna bring it as my lullaby to sleep. im gonna tear tonite when no one else sees me cz thats one of the ways i drain out my feelings i cant utter to anyone or thy mentioned. and when morning peeps through my window, I hope im better... and i will be. when this song plays in my new day, no tears will fall... and i will be dere, to tell myself, "be strong. ure the only one who can control wat happens to u." (And I will rise on wings of eagles Soaring high above all my fears) I hope he'll see that saying I love you, is really more than just words. Oh God... why am I feeling this way? (conscience: because i think u miss him too much.) mercredi, juillet 25, 2007
old pics and Shape magazine
11:29 PM
 Old pics of short hair and the body im aiming for! (excluding length-wise. haha!)  Well... I am still waitin for my salary, the first ever from Starbucks but none as yet. and while waitin and being patient, im tryin to just save what I get for my allowance. However, it doesnt seem to please me cz I wanna get that Shape magazine. haha. Just wanna be inspired and to keep me occupied on my long travels back and to school. Been to two stalls and they said that either they ran out of it or, the stocks hasnt came. Ive bought a magazine last night. I don't quite like reading Cleo magazine. Very much adult stuff and for stable-working people so I cant much relate to what it said. I got that because it has 42 spots here in singapore which are gd places to hang out, shop, eat and lose yourself! (some) wahahaha.... Back from school, i tried salvaging the D drive which is now known as H drive in dad's comp. Just found my older pics during high school days. theyre at least 3 years back. hehe. =) Gawd... I look better! wahahahaha... I dont know. =) And oh yea, one of my modules that are not examinable are on the red line cz my attendance is low. wahaha... 5/10. so i need to not absent myself anymore or else i mite get debarred from the exams! omg! haha. First time Karen! ok... back to good girl. take care y'all! i hope life is doin awesome for you. =D
Books galore
1:20 AM
 2 books ive took pics with. hahaha... =) well, recently finished. lundi, juillet 23, 2007
The 7 Habits of Highly Effective Teens.
11:50 PM
 A book that became my favorite. the first ever book that Ive read twice. =) Truly an inspiration for leading and taking control of our own lives. =)
Blessings last 21st July 2007
9:49 PM
That day was very much a roller-coaster ride but I'm thankful cz God was there, blessing me when I'm not feeling good. It started the afternoon of 20th when a partner requested of changing shifts. I just agreed anyway cz my work will be at 1pm instead of 11am. twas really a busy day at work and my left arm started to really shake cz of busing. which meant "cleanin up" in starbucks. You need to carry a black tub and go around collecting the plates, mugs and utensils.... Here's the catch. I've been doing that for many times that day until, i tried changing my routine. Talk to the customers. Just so happened one of them, a Caucasian woman of about late 60s to 70s, was sitting alone. Of course she seems to be waiting for someone and so I took the chance of talkin to her while I did my busing. Unfortunately, in the middle of our conversation, where she said that "our son lives here" the tub i was balancing fell off from the arm of the wooden chair. There was a loud thud, and voila! Coffee and tea spilled on the wooden floor. ugggh.... wat an embarrassment cz i saw and i did felt curious and shocked eyeballs looking at where the thud came from. Perhaps, they thought twas a bomb?? heh.. At that exact moment, my manager was doing the bussing too and obviously he saw what happened. Whaaaaaaaaat... i took my leave carrying the heavy load with me and, along the way, the husband carrying with him two mugs, looked at me and laughed. Gawd... but his laughter was in a way of mixed emotions of being thankful cz i talked to her wife and then, laughing at my stupid mistake, bcz, hello world, i laughed when that incident happened and the women i was talking to, laughed as well. haha. Phew! whata relief! (lesson learnt: laugh at ur mistakes. its a gd remedy! hehe) Back inside, my manager kindly told me to help my partners in the store instead. And i summoned my courage to tell him i spilled something outside. He knew. And he offered of cleaning up and doing the rest of the busing. thank God!!! It was freaking busy. totally.... I took a break and oh... my arms were freakin shaking! woo... den another miracle happened. I was asked if I could worked longer but i said i couldnt cz I was to attend a birthday party straight after work. I'm grateful bcz each time i feel tired that day, while inside a train or a bus ride, someone whom i stand infront of, actually takes their leave. =) and that happened each time i took a ride to a my next destination. Thank you Lord! weee I reached Pasir Ris and was already on the line when mom called and told me to get the free bus ride that takes me to my destination : costa sands resort. She gave me directions and i followed them. there was this line of buses at the location where i was directed, i called mom and some how i was anxious too and ran about 100m away despite my exhaustion and lack of sleep, cz the line of people was already long. the bus was gonna leave in few minutes. kept calling mom and on the line, someone picks up and never says anything. The first few times was alright, until it finally got on my nerves. I kept sayin "hello," (anger and hopeful voice) even managed to turn heads walking passed by me... I was frustrated cz i had to call and call, my balance was running as low as 8bucks and then again, my call is answered but no one responds! It happened more than 10times! freak... Called dad and he doesnt picks up I told myself to be patient. Told myself to walk around despite already being hungry and exhausted. Good thing i brought along the sandwich i wasn't able to finish from work. but that didn't fill me. I tried calling again and thank God, mom finally said hello. Ranted my frustrations on her and nyahaha... her phone is really silly, so anw, she told me to take a cab. Ive not much money then. (10 bucks with few coins?) Im really saving. Mom said she'll pay when i get there. Turned out, those buses i saw were not meant for my location. And den... someone smsed me the location of the place. I searched for a taxi stand and there was one beside the lanes of buses but there were hardly any vehicles passing by. So i went around the freaking White sands mall, drooled passed by many restaurants. im still cravin for onion rings from Bk, which, i used to detest actually. haha... finally I saw a taxi stand filled with a long line of passengers waiting. damn... well, here's the good part, mom called again and i kept my cool despite my freakin condition. haha. just so happened there was a family of pinoy at my back. they had 2 small kids with them and a stroller. haahaa... grabeh, dami ng pinoys dito sa spore. my turn finally came and of all the taxis, a MERCERDES bens taxi came followed by a yellow cab at its back. wahaha... my... I was surprised and thanked God that moment. I was really feeling God's grace. This is what i did, I turned my back and talked to them in our language. Told the mother to take the merc taxi instead and i'll switch with the next cab behind it. hehe.. it made me feel gd, (cah-ching! i made a deposite in my PBA!) and esp seeing the 2 kids havin a gd ride back home on a posh vehicle. Mine was good, cz as we were waitin for them to get inside the taxi, i was content with the taxi i chose cz, its yellow anyway, and that's enough to put a smile on my face. I dont need a posh one, just a yellow cab will be more a happiness to me. haha. (even if its not yellow, i'd still switch with them. But hey, thank God the other cab was yellow! hehe) =) Thank you Lord. You helped me in every step. You made me relieved. I love you. jeudi, juillet 19, 2007
GONE
11:58 PM
Dad took off drive D last .... Sunday. and guess what? this computer got sick. Dad got it back to normal hours later after my dance practice. so, twasnt that bad... until i asked if he could return the disk. dad did so... he told me that all the files are lost except for the pictures. thats what i only want anyway. haha. nevermind the rest.... then came yesterday he was loading all the files from disk D to landisk. apparently he said the anti-virus got in the way during the process which took 2 days long and so drive D got corrupted. which only means ALL THE FILES are GONE. AHHH!! *screams with my clenched fist* shit. and all dad was to say was "ganun talaga ang computer." "computers are like that." wt... =( oh no... ive no more pics. damn it!!! now im thinkin of savin dem all in a server. hah... but make it private. damn it. damn it. any better ideas?? to even think i was browsin our pics dated back as long as 2001 this afernoon and freaks... i wanted to make a compilation and now, its as good as forgettin the idea. sadness. p.s honey, can u pls gimme all ur pics again? hehehe... as in ALL. im sorry for the trouble. imissu! ashiteru~ oh yea, once again, a lovey-dovey-greet of 17months to us! sail further! mmmwah~* mardi, juillet 17, 2007
Degree
10:09 PM
Today, after a short day in class because of just a test which i've completed in about 15min instead of an hour, i had to wait for an agonising 2 hours for tennis to start. oh my lord... i went to the computer lab to past the time after sittin alone in the cafe for about half an hour, alone in a long stretch of table with 8 sits occupying it. haha. the point is, Uncle Polo is to stop over today at 550pm. I didnt know he came from philippines and back to jakarta. woaaa... i thought otherwise. so, i really thought of gettin ahead after tennis practice. Tennis was awesome. haha. met some new girls that are madly insane. i dont really find their jokes funny or other things that they laugh at. haha. guess i wasnt in the mood. I love tennis! whack... my love for it is reviving! Well, at least now, I know how to play already. unlike before, i was still pickin up the basics. i love the feelin when the ball comes up to you and there's this special sounds it makes. haha. i caught that sound time and time again esp once when i missed the ball. wahahhaha... oh man, u gotta play it so you'll understand the excitement. other than the wooshing pass of the ball against the racket, i love running for it too! hahahaha... running for the ball from one side to another and hittin it with the racket. AMAZING! hehehehe.. opponents might hate it cz u ran from one end of the court to another, but for me, it's love babeh! woot! hehehehe =D so to the point. i left school at 7pm. I could be there all night long I swear but, i just wanna meet uncle pol before he goes to freakin phils. (ended up, he came from phils, he's goin back to Jakarta for WORK! uggggh. meron pa naman akong sinulat para kay chemae and i wrote that infront of uncle pol! whaaaack!) plus, dinner's on dad! wahahaha... since my school is near the airport, also, ive asked my classmates how to reach there the fastest, it took me about 10min to reach. =D AWE... damn. Airports. I love airports. hahaha... gives me so much aspiration, dreams, hopes, adventures, thrills, good deals, wide spaces, luggages of different sizes and colors, the sexy stewardess wantin me to go shed off more fats, the tax free shopping, the bright lights, the huge birds (planes) from different continents and all those details, i call their tatoo = arts of their designs and many more... to end it, I love lookin at the arrival and departure list. And as I was waitin for dad, i noticed this flight: New York -JFK. (John Forever Karen? haha. yes... ok. i was thinkin of wrds to fit in the initials.) new york.... den JFK. that caught my attention twice. I was more glued to new york than any other flights. New york! soon! hahahaha... so the point is. (yet again! hahahaha) It's been months or so years that my dad and I really bonded. You think it's weird yea? Cz afterall he's my dad. haha. But thing is, we dont really talk at all. He goes to work when im usually still asleep since ive started college, comes home from work, when im up or home before he does, i do the "mano" den after that, ayon na. it ends there. we dont really talk about our life and so on. So you lucky guys out there, be thankful cz I ask "how are you" and things like that. And honestly, my family, we dont really do that already. huhu. sad i noe. watever. the hour ride from airport to home made my dad talk to me. LOL. =p i think....... he was the one who sta.. oh nO!, twas me who asked him first. cz, we didnt know how to go home by public bus. since 2 years back, my friends and I sent Louise by bus, I found a short cut of goin home. I asked dad for uncle polo's age, their age gap. and, Gosh, as im typing this, i cant believe dad ELABORATES! hahahaha... i dont need to ask him heaps of questions to keep him goin on to talk and talk aka keep the conversation goin and i love that. i hope my guy does the same. yes, MY GUY, cz he shouldnt be boring. uhh... no way. then i knew that their age gap is 12 years apart. way much bigger than my younger sis and i. also, he's the 2nd among the 8 siblings. woa... another link to me. and from there... talked about Chemae's salary. lol it then flowed to education. and from this year, ive about 7 years to go for my degree. painful freakin long wait. dad said this, "endure the pain now and enjoy later" OR "enjoy now and endure the pain later.... PERO masmahirap yon!" (and obviously he doesnt want me to do that cz he was doing all those weird hand gestures and i noe, his face is sayin "NO KAREN. HUWAG GANON." and oh yea, thank God dad isnt sarcastic at all. he was really serious and sincere about the whole talk that's why he moved me. awe... YES FOLKS! MY DAD MOVED ME. ive confessed my hatred in mechnical. not necesarrily engineering. dad opened up doors for me on how to enhance, how companies run and choose their people, how they help their ppl and all that... and yes, although it takes me a long time to get dat degree, i told my dad, that THAT is my goal. I keep saying that really. I'm scared. I really want a degree... after what dad keeps telling me and all. I want a stable and comfortable life and that DEGREE will guarantee it. (aww, it rhymes) dad just kept saying abt the degree again and again. degree: how it help you, salary, work.... and then he relates it to himself... ( i just noticed dad and I just talk about education.) there was a point where he was strict. cz he never really say anything about my part time job. other than the good- filling food at starbucks. haha. thats when i knew dad wasnt really agreeing to my part time job. there was a guilty side of me cz i do try to fit in work during sch days... and i was convincing him that my grades are good... hey,i never skip sch just for work. im NEVER goin to do that. NEVER. then also, its not bcz of work, but bcz of inconsistency and poor management, i flunk a test last sem. so erm, that hurt. heh... parang, when dad became strict with his tone of voice, all the stupid things i did became clear to me. woa.... yes. -_-" den even at home. as im typing this DEGREE, again is the topic. since mom shares her joys for nikki's good grades since they hired this uni student as nikki's tutor. i always retreat (as how nikki tells me) to my room when her tuition teacher comes. i just prefer lockin in there rather than socialising with my sister's tutor. ngeek. haha. madistorbo ko pa cla. oh yea, i learnt something about dad too. he's the quiet type. he said my mom is the opposite of him. hahaha... mom's gd at managing and talkin while dad prefers doin the job/ practical. hehehe.. he doesnt like debates. hey, i really want that degree in 7 years. i hope nothing delays me just like the book "where rainbow ends." Dad, thanks for inspirin your eldest daughter. (im too shy to say this in person.heh...) ppl! earn urself at least a degree if u want a secure and comfy life! =) im here for ur support! =D I love y'all! Godbless! Achieve ur dreams! Carpe diem! Take care! dimanche, juillet 15, 2007
15min left
12:38 AM
ive that amount of time left online. yet the person im so dyin to talk to isnt even infront of the computer. to the person, who knows already that im pertaining to you. "the first thing that comes to mind is you. when ive received ur miss call i came online in an instant. ive asked for the freakin password so only i cud access the comp. yet in that waitin, twas in vain. until i had to go and u were here, probably waiting. and here i am, online once again and u are too. just that... ure not in ur computer, while im here, waiting once more. i think by the time my time is up, then only would u come around. wrong timing, as how it seems. yearning, something we always wanna seize. was hopin you could leave me something to make me feel you were thinkin of me too. rather than leavin me in my hopeless dreams that doesnt even really come true at the end. why do we miss call once again? do u remember the reason why? and now, im no more balance to really miss call you. im soorrry... as much as i want to... =( besides, ive no salary yet. sana naman... ituring mo ang isang araw na parang yoon na ang iyong huli... sana naman... ako'y ligawan mo parin dahil hindi lang ikaw ang gumagawa non... at kundi, ako'y minsan, napapadala... sana naman... sana naman. iloveyou. take care." imissu -------------------- while wrkin today, i felt my word spin. twas really odd... good thing there werent any customers yet. i felt my world really turn... i didnt tell my partness abt it. den... kinda feel like vomiting... and i tasted the quish i ate for my lunch. there are times like when i was in the train, i felt really cold... and even on my trip back home, i felt colder than the first time i had felt it to an extent ive to wear my jacket. thank God i had brought along my jacket... but i just dont undstand why that happened. how odd and freaky. tc~
bitterness of wanting
12:19 AM
the first thing that comes to mind is the regrets. the hell. anyway, it was really weird. a message ive had posted up in YM came true that followin day. then it linked to someone's dream, just that it was modified. twas good yet you cant have it. you want it but yet not the right time. you can want it if u would, but there are consequences in store. its so hard for happiness to be captured. just like moments ago. the wantin of talkin to him. im not even sure if he really waited, but i really am dreamin he had. somehow, u cant really tell... even if he did, there's something else he had done. twasnt mainly about me. each of us, do feel selfish.. im so yearnin for something.. and the wait is really long, temptations around and patience i just've to bear. whaaaack. why cant we just.... live and pretend of the feelings that doesnt exist? sure we can... buts its hard, damn hard. until then. i'll wait for ive got wat i want... it's just a test for our patience now. (ugggh. tagal! miracle miracle come arnd now! sigh) mardi, juillet 10, 2007
Twisting Emotions
10:01 PM
Ive to blog this out although its very much personal, it's not like anyone complain about what I'm blogging so far. After 3 blissful weeks off from school, I am the least person to be excited of going back. Entirely due to the reason that this class of mine, from my point, isn't really serious about studying. Maybe they are, but their vibes and actions to me aren't sending a single message of seriousness. oh gawd... to even think it's my graduating class. shitness. I am accused by a mere classmate, I don't even think I consider him as a friend, I am appalled at how he treats me and his usage of words. Grabeh talaga. Hangang sa masuka suka na ako sa galit, muntik ko na syang sinigawan sa first day of school pa. hmph!!! damn it... why such guys have to exist. Theyre sucha pests in my life. So here's the story. This dude, A, was sick for the last week of holidays. He asks (more like accuses, you know) why I am not visiting him at his home, (WTF) cz he is sick. AS IF, I know where he lives. AS IF, ive been there. AS IF, im his girlfriend! (NOWAY!!) AS IF, i wanna go!!! (already, I am so bloody busy and he CLEARLY knows that cz I already ignore him all the time, online) Before this sickness of him, he has been complaining to me why i am not chattin with him whenever he sees me online. Automatically, this dude chats with me when i sign in at msn. uggggh.... I dont, honestly, even like talkin to him cz he himself doesn't even understand what he is saying. and i am so... confuse to whatever he is saying. He takes simple jokes seriously and he misinterprets what you intentionally mean. He keeps asking if he is bad and all that crap. Cz obviously, months back, in the commencement of our 2nd year sometime this May, already, a lot of our classmates detest him. (i was still in a state of wonder why they hate him. as in HATE even though theyve not talked to him yet. and its funny cz most of them said, "just by lookin at him, u can already see i hate him." and now?? Ive joined their club) I find him alright since we were classmates in PIE last year. But now, I AM SO SICKENED BY HIM!!!!! SO SICK I WANNA SCREAM CZ ugh... I wanna say HATE. Really do, but im not that mean. I dont really know how his mind works. He's sucha bug and so much as an irritating asshole through my 3 weeks break. Thank God its only online... if we've classes? I'd EXPLODE in anger. So anyway, this dude... apparently, is the first person in the whole class to know Ive a boyfriend. There are other flirts in my class that Im trying my best to manipulate and control. B and C, as hidden from their real names. B -maybe i had a teeny-weeny crush on him cz gentlemanliness is one of my weaknesses in the opposite gender. and this dude bear it all. Until, eventually, it gotten worst cz I noticed he keeps sticking to me. Whenever we have breaks, he always asks where we're (the other girl other than me in class) eating, den THEY will join. THEY, as in their grp of friends. I think they were in the same class last year. He bugs for my cellphone number and I haven't given him for months until, we ended up being in the same group, which, i really hope I didnt join. If only I could switch groups. Im sure my former classmates in year 1 would accept me. haha. As they always do. ----------------cut!-------------- i former classmate chatted with me... and naturally, ive to blurt this out and all he did was laugh at me. oh wow... what a help. Honey, i really wish you're here. Talk to you soon ok? IMISSUSOMUCH. gotta talk. tell me how uve been. Iloveyou. vendredi, juillet 06, 2007
my life durin my holidays
12:05 AM
It's a random bloggin session with my random thoughts. Don't bother about the title. By this time, 12:13am, I'm actually really tired. I still have to meet my girlfriends tomorrow cz we agreed to watch Transformers. We'll meet at 12noon. God, thats so freakin hot. But it's really fine with me. Singapore has always been HOT. Speakin of time. I, for once, told myself not to be late. I know the average time of my travellin from home to work. (or anywhere else.) But somehow, i tend to just drag the time needed to prepare. Upon reachin my destination, I'd get reprimandings. haha. It's the usual. Since im usually late. I dont know why I cant seem to kick that bad habit. Today, a while ago, I took a delight of being early, embraced that fact and pat myself for being on-time. I hope it goes on. At this moment, I'm actually bored. I dont know what to do. I wanna sleep but i still find myself online, waiting for my boyfriend. My heart races whenever i hear the "yahooo~~" signal in YM that a contact is online. Then heave a sadness or disappointment cz it's not him. uggggh. God... I just miss him you know. He's still the only person whom I really talk to everything and anything about life. Except some things he might get jealous of! hahahaha.... ;) Basta, I Love You John Paul! =) I'm so greatful to have you as my boyfriend even though we're not as yet physically together. I just cant wait for that opportunity to come.. definitely, a blessing to me. to us. =D So anyway, back to my life. Expect a long blog entry ahead cz I just really wanna keep myself occupied although there could be other things that I could be doing. haha. For example, studyin! I'm gonna be back to school next week for that matter. I am so not looking forward to it. I prefer the nervousness of serving a customer at starbucks. I just prefer workin there instead of in school. Because..... I am sick of my classmates. lol. I mean, theyre not the sort who really study. There are other motives behind them and its so hard to share this experience cz there are only 2 girls in my class besides me. I get stuck with boys who barely understands a girl's mind. Yes, I havent really find that comfort zone with them cz, those are... animals. hahahaha... Oh well, I wanna graduate. I wanna make my love ones proud especially my parents, so, gotta work hard and concentrate. Shoot and aim for As n kick the boys asses. Engineering is for girls too. assholes. hahaha... Ive got this classmate who complained cz he was really looking forward of askin me out. Yet its in vain cz i keep ignoring him, already online, when he never fails to chat with me when i sign in online at msn msgr... -_-" he keeps complainin complainin.. he tells me why i wont visit him cz he's sick. wathefu*&. AND rite now, im just chattin with him to occupy my freakin boredomness and he yet again, complains his head of cz another classmate gave me a comment. alamak! Its so obvious he's jealous. UGGGGH. why do i have to deal with such boys!?!?! and!!!!! IVE A BOYFREN! I LOVE HIM! Yet this dude just doesnt see the obvious BIG signs! KAKAINIS!!!! Work. Im currently one month and 11days old with starbucks. Ive completed the textbook, the lessons, the trainings and the Bar tests. I am now a Barista, no more in training yet.... Ive no certificate yet. haha... cz we'll be given one. That doesnt really matter... cz, I need cash! uggggh.... wala pa akong sahod. and its hard to keep askin mom cz im on vacation. they cant feed my personal necessities. I am so in regret spending my last salary at BK to Mango sale. uuuggghh.. to an extent that i still went on buying this shirt, lime green with, diamonds on the shoes and the french word, "Voila" in it. The whole point of wantin it... plus, its the smallest and last size of an M. God... in the end, it doesnt fit me. Its freakin lose. darn. oh well. I love working at starbucks. I really do. The partners keep me motivated and we always make sure that all of us climb the ladder of success. something BK never offered me as a whole package. And when it comes to customers, I am surprise to the fact that alot of people drink starbucks even though its hella expensive. haha. I get all jittery when there's a SLAM (crowd) cz it reminds me of BK... the manager telling me to be FAST and the whole point was to really just get their food in exchange of their money. Starbucks is utterly way different. This, something Ive yet to really be accustomed to. Cz.... in BK, when ure in the POS, that whole Line of urs us ONLY URS TO SERVE. in Starbucks, its for EVERYONE, as in ur partners. You dont really have to be worried cz rest assured, your partners will definitely help you. That thought, keeps blowin away when i see a slam... I still feel its my obligation, only mine to serve them. hay nako. wata paradox of 1st n 2nd job. and do u noe? Starbucks and BK used to be in the same company (Bonfoods) but Starbucks became independent in the end. I used to hate the BAR area, thats where you make their hot and cold drinks first hand. somehow "hand-crafted" drink for the customer, first hand. I hate it because I was yet LOST on how to make FOAM out of MILK. on how to control the BUBBLES in the beaker... how to hold the beaker.. hold to control the milk wand and the milk in the beaker... do you get my flow? haha... and I get awkward of simply PRACTISING cz, the milk will go to waste. as in, I only practise to make foam again and again and after that, I just throw away wat ive done. It's another awestruck factor I've embraced in starbucks. It's really giving the customers their BEST and FRESH products. not just their customers but their Partners.. ensuring their training is excellent... even though MANY things will go to a waste. To cut it short, I made 6 drinks for my bar test that got delayed again and again. The real date was on June 23rd '07. and for goodness sake, I am really confident of failing it cz I dont know the ingredients yet for the bar drinks or Frapp drinks... I only had 2 drinks of practise the previous day. yes... just the previous day. Thank God it was postponed to tuesday... and then finally last 27th June '07, wednesday. I was tested on Short drinks: Caramel Macchiato, Cappuccino, Mocha, Latte, Hot chocolate and a Expresso macchiato. -- oops. gotta end here. i'll continue next time... perhaps. pics to our performances can be seen at: niftyune.multiply.com and go check out my frens too who have our pics: http://charladhurla.multiply.com/ http://desiree88.multiply.com/ for bday pics and dance practises: http://mzjblock.multiply.com/ for photographers shots (& FDC stuffs): http://filsg.com/smf/index.php/board,9.0.html (sowie i abruptly ended. i'll try not to make it happen again. hehe) take care y'all! Godbless~ dimanche, juillet 01, 2007
I'm missing you -Bobby Tinsley
1:55 AM
I'm Missing You Ohh babe... Ohh babe... The nights are long, My days are cold, Without the warmth you provide me when I hold, You in my arms, feels so long ago, When you were there... I think a teardrop just fell down.. I really wanna come to see you, I really really wish I could, Maybe in a couple weeks, It’s only a couple weeks... But even know I get to, It’s 14 days I gotta get trough (it’s too many days babe) And I’m really really missing you.. And I miss, miss, Miss.. I’m missing you.. And I don’t know.. How I’m gonna make it trough.. But I gotta, gotta, stay strong for us two.. I’m a man, It’s a job that I gotta do. So I go outside and I fake a smile.. But if they only knew, Just how many miles.. Were between love so true, I really couldn’t cope the way that we do (that we do..) And I’m really really missing you, You, you.. Baby when you’re near, All of my visions clear. But like a magic show, I blink and than you disapear.. And I frequently, Envision of it would be.. To have you alone with me.. Give me a moment so I can breathe .. Ok. I really wanna come to see you, Baby I wish I could ...(Wish I could..) Maybe in a couple weeks (It’s only two weeks) It's only a couple weeks (But the problem is..) Even though I get to.. It's 14 long days that I don’t have you.. (It’s too many days babe) And I'm really really missing you.. And I miss, miss.. Miss I’m really really missing you. And I don't know, (I don’t know) How I'm gonna make it through. But I gotta, gotta ... (Gotta) Stay strong for us two. I'm a man, It's a job that I gotta do. So I go outside and I fake a smile, But if they only knew, Just how many miles.. (How many miles) Were between love so true, I really couldn’t cope the way that we do.. (The way that we do) And I’m really really missing you (Missing you) Cuz maybe one day babe, Not too far away, We can turn, all our dreams into memories. (Not gonna be like this forever right?) Baby we'll have that home, Stars stares, all that we share.. Too many nights, over the phone. I really wanna come to see you (uhuh) Baby you know I do.. Maybe in a couple weeks (I’ll try) It's only a couple weeks (Can’t promiss..) But even know I get to, Still don't wanna be away from you.. It’s too many days babe, And I’m really really missing you. And I miss, miss, Miss.. I miss you.. And I don’t know (I don’t know) How I’m gonna make it trough.. But I gotta, gotta, Hold strong for us two (strong for us two) I’m a man, It’s a job that I gotta do. So I go outside (I’ll go outside) And I fake a smile (I’ll fake a smile) But if they only knew, Just how many miles.. Were between love so true, I really couldn’t cope the way that we do.. And I’m really really missing you.... ----------- Oh my God.. It's really a long SONG ahead.. but its trully amazing. Another song that has captured my heart. Many songs this year, has captured my heart. Oh my, 2007, so much to really be thankful for. So much to start my ty-years. The song... connects to many nerves in my life. Just like the nerves in our body that connects to a specific organ. Ultimately, what really leads this song to, is to my heart. Although he might have noticed Ive been quite close to my guy friends, yes I know, I might be really making him jealous, maybe because it has something to do with what happened between us. (but yes, its clear to see he's still the one, and I hope, I'm still the one.) And since he isnt there to even care for me, to not even give a damn, cz he left me in my lowest, to not even the least to make me know he cares, at least ive got my friends here. (or out there, in other lands) It just so happened they were guys. Sorry nalang. Allan, I dont know why, whenever he comments, thats when John and I had or will have a petty arguement. Eh lagi naman kasi sa kanya naguumpisa eh. Ilan lang naman talaga sakin. In fairnes.... honey. Randy... that song was playing in his profile.. the words speaks out my situation. Our situation.. wouldn't it be great if he sings that? (awe...) Junfeng.. ugh. he acts like a (doggie-)boyfriend. I dont treat him as one. My ass. I think the girlfren he'll be having will be a rebound. He's not ready for one and even if he is ready, he's just not my type. Done deal. Doggie because, he does anythin i say. ugh. I miss saying honey. I miss saying, I love you. I miss the miss calls just to let me know he's thinkin of me, just to let him know I am thinkin of him, just so we can talk... I miss the thumps of excitement my heart makes when i see his name pops up in the screen. I miss the letters he sends me on time, always on time. I miss his emails, his comments, his blog entries, his pictures, his life stories, his singing, his voice, his laughter, his curses, his complaints, his sad voice, his excitement, his lovey-dovey voice and msges... and I can't help but remenisce our miracle days of being together. Definitely I am not gonna forget that even if I'm old and gray...(jus like the Notebook) there's just something about those days that are beyond reasoning. hence forth, I descibed it as "miracle days." Sometimes I feel like giving up. Yet I can't help but feel remorse and be wasted of what we've overcome. Then came this song, which enlightened me. Even though Im somewhat cold to him right now, just dig in deeper to my heart, to my emotions and that's where you'll see the pit of love im hiding... because I know deep down... I still love him anyway. In the real world, as what my manager replied to the customer who asked him, "why are you so happy today?" he replied, of course, happily, "we just have to. Even if we're not, we need to show we're happy." That's what happens to anyone who hides their emotions. As the song suggests, "So I go outside and I fake a smile.." To end this cz it's goin to be longer than it shouldnt be, my relationship is hard... any long distance is... and every word, every paragraph in this song... brings sunshine to my growing love.... I hope it never stops growing. 1july07. 12:50am |
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