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mardi, novembre 28, 2006
nothing
12:19 AM
haha. Ive never been this freakin bored in school. shit. shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit! i cud very well sleep in class but no. I cant, esp when everyone in that classroom is a guy. shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit. yea. then its becoming a normal thing to me to know what guys are really talking about. gosh, how gross could they even get? not to mention they bring specimens along and talk about those things like as if its sucha normal subject. omg. Im just in daze and utterly speechless. No wonder girls hardly, well, not talk about it. Not so detailed nor would it even take 5 minutes for such a topic esp when ure not even close with that person. But guys.... they talk about it and dont seem bored. and yes, they'll keep saying, "It's normal." (It's not! sheeze.) Hah! Times like these I just pretend. Pretend I dont know what theyre saying and thank God they dont speak in english. I could still hide the truth and say white lies. haha. Guys even talk about what they're gonna wear, even the freaking brand of the boxers for example. omg. You might find me talking about some general topic but no, Im talking about gross, private, disgusting talks. or perhaps "disgusting." shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit. sometimes having learnt a language isn't pleasing cz u'll understand what they're talking about... no matter how much you want to ignore. gosh. haha. den on my way home from school, i noticed yet again that the whole passengers on the first stop were all men. If only one of them is the love of my life. And speaking of that. Some guys in my class are gettin really irritating. They can't sit still and poor me, Im being preyed upon. grrr.. And some guys will do anything just so you would notice them. Gosh, that's just so utterly pathetic. utterly! Take note, they do it in childish means or perhaps one would label that as flirting. watever. I just can't be bothered. Nevertheless, one cant deny the fact that one of them do gets to you. There is. And I cant help but smile whenever he messages. He's being all sweet this week but he did something today that turned me off. Yes, utterly. haha. Man.. Nite nite. i should go to bed. some things are better enclosed to the public. Honey! Guys are gross! And im beginnin to think if.... nyahaha.. we should talk. but dont be gross too. eeew. hint hint. thinking about it, I think we've talked about that. omg. iloveya~ dimanche, novembre 19, 2006
Painful lies
10:13 AM
 I don't know what to believe anymore. Ive been taking each blow one step at a time. Somehow I just wanna move on, let go, not think about it, get busy... but still be there. I guess I'm still longing. I guess I'm still holdin on... But what if I was used yet again? What if all that were said were lies and I became naive? I hate having that "same-old-heartache" feeling. I made up my mind. No matter how cruel it is already to face the fact that my thoughts are still haunted each time, I'm just gonna be strong and hold my head high. I'm not gonna hide anything. I know I'm hurting. Im just being strong. -strong as I can. I dont wanna imagine "wat could have," wat might," "wat ifs." Ayaw ko na. sawa na ako. And no one else can console that but me. How i wish someone cud just hold me, cz im breakin in pieces. pieces i'd pick up, pieces i'd stored, pieces i'd probably throw cz theyre broken. Lord, help me. I need you, like no other. Was i fooled in love? Ihopenot. "misused. misplaced."  mercredi, novembre 15, 2006
Waiting to be sick
10:27 PM
I'm waiting for that time where I'd be sick from fever. Ive been sneezing more than I should with subsequent cough and that I'm down with a flu causing me to have a blocked nose. Plus, Im having a sore throat. Last complain is that the weather doesnt help either cz already in the early morning for an exercise regime i have in mind, was cancelled cz of the oppressively low nimbus clouds. Hence, the chilly wind. Yep... For the first time in Singapore I wore my thin jacket all the while. Then at lunch I saw that guy whom my tennis mate is havin a crush on... Well, thing is, I just noticed he's the most handsome guy in the school (so far) other than the other malay guy who's more charismatic. At least I got to talk to him, but this figure... I can only glance and admire. lol... I get info's through a friend. My friends are acting like they're such fans of him. I just cant help but just sit there and notice him, well not much cz lately, there's some peculiar gestures about him.. E.g: His bag. His file. His water bottle. The last time I saw him which was lastweek (and noticed that he knew Im there) his bag was the normal dark green sling bag and no file nor the water bottle. Karina used a sling bag too and already, the water bottle is my routine of buying it in school everyday and lately he has been doing the same. Then yea, today, I noticed him carrying a file, did his... probably homework in the caféteria and that when he left, his bag is now a backpack. Like mine. hmmm... And so my observations are still on going. He's taking engineerin too. Just that I don't know what and which. Funfact:
le15novembre06 10:35pm ohshoots, Ive a project to do and, hallelujah, no school this friday. Cz the teachers need an urgent meeting with the HQ. -Boring- I'll miss school.- No allowance for a supposedly movie date with pals.- dimanche, novembre 12, 2006
Moments on the dance floor
6:06 PM
 Moments on the dance floor Dance with me But not seductively For Im not yet sure How close we shud get We just met with little words said But through ur moves which captivated me and captured my soul... You came to me, with such a blow -your way of saying "Hello." We glanced up and down; Did the grinding, the hot dance in town. Whence, suddenly, you grabbed my hand, pullled me close, and held my back feelin in for more... We found ourselves dancing comfortably and you stepped up the pace but with so much array that took my breathe away.. Finally the dance moved in a slow pace. "Slow dance with me?" you asked. I moved in, You pulled me , I span around and told you, "Sorry, I'm taken." with no regrets and walked away... Written by: Karin Gutlay. 5:55pm. 8mins. [inspired by the soundtrack movie "Step up" by Samantha Jade.] jeudi, novembre 09, 2006
Mussings of "so far away"
9:25 PM
 Behind this picture stand a memory in my mind... Nickelback Far Away Lyrics This time, This place Misused, Mistakes Too long, Too late Who was I to make you wait Just one chance Just one breath Just in case there's just one left 'Cause you know, you know, you know [CHORUS] That I love you I've loved you all along And I miss you Been far away for far too long I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore On my knees, I'll ask Last chance for one last dance 'Cause with you, I'd withstand All of Hell to hold your hand I'd give it all I'd give for us Give anything, but I won't give up 'Cause you know, you know, you know [CHORUS] So far away So far away Been far away for far too long So far away So far away Been far away for far too long But you know, you know, you know I wanted I wanted you to stay 'Cause I needed I need to hear you say I love you I've loved you all along And I forgive you For being away for far too long So keep breathing 'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore Believe it Hold on to me, never let me go Keep breathing Hold on to me and, never let me go Keep breathing Hold on to me, never let me go Just watch the video and oh man.. its so like a fairytale come true. hehe. I honestly havent watch LODR at all. I wanted to borrow the complete cd of it from a librarian back in my high school days, unfortunately, he died... anyway, im really amazed at the scenematic cinematography of LODR. (Lord Of the Rings.) I might decide to get the cds or read the book? haha, nah, i think i'll just watch. :) Ive always been a fan of those fairy kinda movies and i have to say i do love fairytales. I love butterflies only because I adore faeries. Love can be so painful it really cause me to tear. It doesnt stop to amaze me to realise the feat we have come so far and at times I find myself scared of the moments that lay ahead in future. Sa picture nalang na yan, hay... yea yea, i mean, there's something about that Jo and I couldnt agree and I dont know who can even phantom something that I really wish might happen... Im hard up... I hurt... I yearn yet I love. I just really hope in the end, we'll a have a great ending like the video, much less the movie itself. I'm just saying this because, obviously, Im missing someone so much yet I cant do anything about it. What can I really do? And sometimes I fear I might get close to someone and something might happen. Not that something is already happening. There are things you wanna do, there are things you hope, there are things you cling on to. Haaay.... emote emote... I tot I might blog, because i feel the feelings are too heavy, been feeling this way whenever Im nt occupied, that's why I'd prefer a busy life... *deep breaths* we shouldnt throw away all the things that we've had. P.S: wen i said 'Things', I relate to innocent ones. perculiar ppl think perculiarly. [oh man... i just came up with something poetic yet again. but dont u be surprise, because i usually write down wat i feel, and it comes out as prose or a ryhme.. yes, im very much into literature. = )] {9nov06. 9:43pm} "I need you to hear me say that I love you, and that I loved you all along." |
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