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mercredi, janvier 31, 2007
Today is the 31st of January.
9:40 PM
wow! Its the end of Jan!!! hehehehe.... Lemme just blog for a few minutes den get off to do something den doze off. Im feeling tired today. [uh-oh.. ive been bloggin everyday now! WOW!!! hahaha] Facts of my 31st Jan 2006:
10.28pm Karen out!~* Hugs and kisses~* Carpe Diem! KAREN MISSes JOHN! hehehe IloveyoU~ "I'll change to make you proud" mardi, janvier 30, 2007
SURVEY!
10:16 PM
Survey Survey! =D 1. Does anyone know your password to your email? - Yep. My honey. =) 2. What was the last thing you ordered at McDonalds? - Ordered? Ahh... *thinking hard* Haha, hot fudge and large fries I shared with a classmate at a trip last Thurs at Singapore Science Center. 3. Are you an emotional person? - Nah... At times. Im vivacious, not emotional. =P 4. Do you like your name? - Of course. I respect my parents with that. hehe. Some people just make fun of it cz they're losers. wahahaha 5. Do you believe in love at first sight? - Havent experienced that. And most likely not. I don't. 6. Ever felt jealous of your friend? - Nah. It's a sin duuude! hehe, but sometimes it's just human. =) 7. What was the last thing you did? - Danced. wahaha... and checked that cellphone ive to changed na. =( 8. Who is right next to you? - No one. 9. Who was the last person you ate with? - ate with??? wahaha... My family. =) 10. What song are you listening to right now? - Josh Groban -In her eyes. 11. How's the weather right now? - Oh I love the weather lately. =) It's chilly and windy. =) Just awesome. Twas sunny too in the afternoon and windy. I loved it. =D 12. Last person who called you today? - Called? Today? Oh, Huiying. 14. Last song you sang? - wahahaha... Chris Daughtry's "Its not over." 15. Last time you danced? - wahaha... minutes ago. =D Just did the last routine learnt last fri. =D weee~ 16. Lost a friendship over something stupid? - Almost. =) But no. weee~ Praise God. 18. Last thing you ate? - Erm.... "Tao Kae Noi" A japanese seaweed. Yumyum. Ive been eatin it for 2 weeks already. wahahha... Yummilicious. 19. Been really depressed before? - Kinda. I dont know if 'depress' is the right word. lol. I guess not. just sad. =) 20. Faked being sick to miss school? - WAHAHAHAHA...... yes. 21. What time did you wake up today? - Today? =D 9am. =D 22. Current taste? - taste?? The Japanese seaweed. Original and the other one that's so spicy and hot... YUM! just sumptuous. 23. Who is the person that posted this survey? - Idah. 24. What are you wearing right now? - A lose tee, a shorts and Honey's monkey pj top. =D 25. Are you too shy to ask anyone out? - nooooooo. Depends if ive a crush on him. =P 26. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? - The... body. wahahaha... His torso. The abs. the eyes. the height. the smile. =D The way he carries himself. u can say all the physical/outward beauty. 27. Where are you right now? - home sweet home, babee~ 29. Did you go anywhere today? - of course. =D Sch. 30. What did you do there? - We did this project that got me all occupied. I tot it was gonna be a tedium but twasnt. I had fun. =D 31. How old are you? - OMG!!!! 19. wahahaha.... 19 lang! (muna.) =P 33. Are you mature or immature? - mixed. =P waahahaha... but wen compared, I'd say mature! =P Duh! who doesnt? wahahaha 34. Do you call your parents by their first name? - No NO NO NO! no. It's just plain rude. 35. Are you an only child? - Thank God not? =D 36. Where do you go shopping? - erm... neear sch. Tampines Mall, Century square or in town. =D Vivo city? wahahaha. =D love the place. =) 37. Do you like where you work? - oooh... speakin of that. Im moving to another outlet. I'd say, I lovED where I workED. =D It's the people that matters. +D 38. Do you like books? - Theyre a good place of imagination and widening our vocabs and knowledge. Of course I do. =D They're my companion esp on my long journeys to sch and at wrk. =D Thanks for them. =) lundi, janvier 29, 2007
From Baby steps to My very own steps
10:33 PM
  From Baby steps to My Very Own Steps. Ive read blogs from frens that made me motivated to c h a n g e. Ive received comments from John and my classmates. That simply tells me that I need to change, NOW. "Karina, are you okay? You look.... ... ... (after forever) Deeead." -Gab Gosh, what a horrible comment. "Karina,thinking of someone? You're missing your boyfriend right? Why, huh? Never did that thing with him?" -Eug Shit. That got me annoyed. I felt he thinks I'm easy to get! Whata jerk!! grr I just said with a sulky facial expression, "Excuse me. FYI, he's not even here and I'm not gonna do that. What the hell, is that all you think when someone is in a relationship? No wonder it's hard for you to even get a girl friend." And then he shuts up but still disturbs me. He then turns to Kenneth and said in Mandarin, "Look at her, she really looks bored. Like really not in the mood to do." And then talks to me again, "Karina, are you ok? You really look like you're not in the mood." Gabriel butted in addin, "Yeah, Karina, you ok? You look like a zombie." Oh horrible. Define something prettier than a zombie! huhu! (hehehe) Then silence. And then Eug commented again on my wires! He said, "Hahaha... It's really interesting to watch you connect. Keep up your piece of art. It's artistic." I just said, " I dont understand you." "Nevermind then." then moments later, "Why are your wires like that?" I just stared at him and glanced at his wires. Yea, fine, his is neat. like just a LINE , and mine was like the usual 'inverted u.' I was fiddling around and I wasn't sure yet of the connections cz that freaky project with wires-all-over-the-place can get really messy and gives anyone (i swear, even our teachers hava hard time checking our wired-work-piece.) a migraine! hehe I had been thinking about our project anyway cz Kenneth said most of us will probably have the same outcome for. We were given this board for circuits, An IC chip with 18 legs, resistors, LED lights, another chip with 8 legs, Capacitors and we had to cut our own long wires and share the cutter. That also takes forever. That's why I was really bored. waiting and asking for that cutter. BUt thank God, I get to pass all my impatience to unwiring a wire. (or baring the wire.) hahaha... It's hard. We were given this worksheet and needed to connect them as it is. We were shown a completed one by another student but our teacher said that the piece wasn't well done. So obviously, there's a hidden secret about doing the project to get that A. That's our project and we were given 3 weeks to do that. Tomorrow will be all AC classes. Damn, its so gonna be BORING. Anyway, I was doing my work, ok. Just that I was completely not interested to talk or whatever unless I ask questions. Then came a comment from my teacher, Mr Ishak, "Karina, are you doing your work?" Well, obviously he cant see me idling with the stupid chips and wires. Yea, cz for one, he was diagonally on my left; for 2, I had my left arm resting on my chin. So it did look like I was day dreaming or sleeping. BUT no, I defended myself and showed him what i was doing. THen another comment from another teacher, Mr Annuar, "What happened to Huiying? She keeps absenting herself..." I'm so tired of teachers asking me that. Like, I'm responsible for her attendance and school grades. Not to mention she's older than me. omg. it's irritating. And she keeps smsing me to meet her before school. SHe's punctual, I'm tardy. So in the end we're both late because of me but she just doesn't care. I just hope one fine day she screams on my face in public and tell me how absurd Ive been being late all the time. But no, i don't think that will ever happen even after graduation. I was restless in class. I looked like a zombie, I looked like I wasn't interested, I looked bored but BUT, I was doing and will do my work. I was and will study... and the only thing that lessens that goal of mine is being tired. I was tired so I was like that. So point is, I need to change my attitude right when I get up and start my day. Have enough rest. I need to use that organizer that I have. (only thing that I don't wanna use that nimore cz its bulky) Oh, Ive gotten a great idea; we were given the sch organizer! =D yeys. I was asking my dad to bring home a new calendar and a 2007 organizer and im still waiting for it. Even if its just that calendar. I need that. I'm not gonna buy. no no no no. (if i don't have a choice, I'd go for one then.) I know dad will bring them. There's lots of it in their planta! And Ive read honey's letter. a sentence got me shaken so, woa, I NEED TO CHANGE NA. So from now onwards, It's gonna be a new me. I hope. (God, wata liar. hehe. cz ive said this time and time again. ) I wanna feel accomplished yet again. I know that's gonna boost my moral. Also, I'll reread Stephen Covey's book I really adored, "7 habits of highly effective teens." Somehow down the road, the inspiration wane and gone. wahahaha. Honey, thanks for the support. Thanks for the cussings. =P hehehe... indirectly. wahaha... joke. thanks for your motivation. thanks for complaining. thanks for screaming. thanks for letting me taste my own medicine. most of all, thanks for your patience and still loving me despite knowing my bad habit. hehe. Man, I love you. =) Thank God for you. xoxoxo 11.10pm le29Janvier07 CARPE DIEM! jeudi, janvier 25, 2007
couples and my own struggles
9:27 PM
  I saw a new pic of Orly with his girlfriend, Beya at his friendster. It's the kinda pic that I would wanna take with my someone. So I searched the net and saved a few shots. Perhaps you're thinking of something of a scandal. haha. Of course not. It's the kind of capture that doesn't emphasize on the person's smile cz the person isnt necessarily smiling nor the person's face taken as a whole. It's on his/her side. Not the sort where they are kissing or being kissed. Not the sort where hugs or clasped hands are enveloped.... What enchants me in that pose is that the person's eyes are closed and thy's forehead just rests on his or her partner. The first few empathetic thoughts that comes to my mind is that I feel the person is thankful, lucky, faithful, solemn, bliss, blessed... loved. Makes me melt. It's like no words are needed to be spoken. One just has to bury thy's hand to thy's hair and be lost in just the two of them. Pulling the person close to him or her, not wanting to let go. Ive browsed through my friendster page and came across my close pals who were once attached happily. But down the road, as the months passed, I checked back and their status is changed. Then you start to ponder and be empathetic. "She was so happy sharing me the things they did for each other. How much they exchanged their devotion all the time, but now, everything seemed to have stopped and gone their separate ways, conquering their own world, though this time, theyre alone. single." Ive been there, done that. Learnt this and that. Sometimes it gets me thinking if it will ever last. If there's really such thing as first and last. Then I came to this magazine that has the "Best love stories." haha. I bought that alright, instead of saving the money, instead of telling myself Ive to live frugally, I ended up spending the money supposedly be saved. There were series and variety of love stories but none really captured me and wowed me. I still think my adventure and Arlah's are way better than the ones published. There were couples that were able to quit smoking together and even such thing that I was pondering on, "First love." There where the long distance that survived for 14 years. There where the renewing of vows for the old... =) I don't know what's in store for me. All I know is that I'm not ready to promise. Anyway, I'm not that kind of person who promises in any means, in any stake. I don't wanna break any promises. There's way too much things that could diminish that one promise to someone that wasn't able to accomplish forcing it to be compelled upon. When someone promises to me, I tend to look forward to that. I'm jubilant and ever more stupefied when the promise was carried out. But something that's a long wait, something that seems more far-reaching, gives me difficulty to believe because no one wants to be preyed upon. No one wants that breach of trust. Yet one cant stop looking forward and making it come true... ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ There's this side of me that's struggling. I keep relying on someone so I could move on. Maybe that sounds unhealthy, maybe that's a sign of weakness. I just don't understand why I have to be driven by something. Why I need to be challenged. It's so hard being alone by yourself. When you were once challenged by your best friend and you ensured that you attain and get the best for yourself and make your loved ones proud. Plus, do better than the one who had done it. Not just anyone, someone you cared and someone whom you wanna show off the world that you accomplished that. Not attaining it alone, but because you were driven. But that isn't the world I'm in now. No more best friend, I don't feel challenged nor driven. I feel alone, empty and I tend to push myself rather than enjoying the competition I've relayed on. Then in the end, I'd scrutinize myself for not doing what I should have done. Damn it. I guess thats why I'm still late to almost any function. Is starts to where I get up. What actually happens is right when I should be out and getting ready for school or any appointment, you see me still idling in bed, stealing as much sleep when I shouldnt. And then a bad chain reaction takes place. Oh shitness. I forgot the times when I was happy and felt accomplished and even congratulated myself because I was early. But that thought hardly comes by anyway. Sadness huh? I hate it. Alas it's the new year, albeit, it's so hard to turn over a new because old habits and reliance die hard. Honestly, Karen still relies on someone to wake her up. Although she has graduated from relying on her alarm clock. She has managed to wake up ON TIME, and she wouldn't have done that if not for God. Yet something else is pushing me in that shadow I keep struggling away from. (waaaaa... Does anybody understand what I just typed? haha. Its the thoughts that keeps running in my mind. Yea, every day.) With love and complete control but not her tardiness, KAREN. mardi, janvier 23, 2007
walang title!
8:16 PM
 Hah! Ac test is OVER! and I took.... 15min in total just to do the practical! wahahaha... When we were given an hour to do it! wahaaaaaaa... Thank God. And I felt confident... for the first time ? I think! hhehehe.. Well done, Karen! =D Oh, Ive engineerin math test tmrw. Its only now that Im realising it! OMAHGOSH! hehe.. Damn I miss him! Damn!!! Naaddict na ako! Missyou honey. Iloveyou. I'd blog proper the next time. =) and oh, I love this new collage. (hala, Si John nanaman! hehehe.) He really does look handsome in that pic. I swear... cz it gives me butterflies in my stomach whenever I look at it. REALLY!!! oh shivers. *blushes* Kinikilig ako! And whenever I reminisce... yeys. Thank you, Lord. vendredi, janvier 12, 2007
In love... with Jpasm
1:16 AM
 Waited for him and ended up with that.I guess that's what happens when it's him ur only thinking of. Damn, wat did I do? Crazy folks like me in love will find that...... Normal! hahaha... I like the collage. =) I'm lookin forward for a real one, one awesome, blessed day. =) hmmmm.... ~chuckles~ jeudi, janvier 11, 2007
Thoughts
11:02 PM
 Miss by chance Hope for glory hope for triumph hope for him to come online. --- of wrath, he wont. beginnin to realise, can i endure the worst moments when you needed someone especially so bad but thy cant come? Watcha gonna do? Will you let ur guard let go and give up? Or think otherwise and move on, hang strong, be brave... as if solitude wasnt nothing but a walk in the park...? but then again, is everything lead that way? No. but then again, things can change..? Yea, good and bad. and it's up to human wit and emotions to decide. Then again, it could all be surreal. I hope. (oh, i forgot my faith in that minute) All my wait came to a superseded. Then realisation knocked in. Dont get urself too involved. heh. Den again, you'd fall and be bliss Den again, you'd fall into pieces Den again, will he pick u up? Or leave you drenched with kisses? haha. Something im writing out of a messy beset thoughts. I came to understand that some guys can be brought easily by ur wit and kindness and in that instant, they'd wanna repay u back in a chance of knowing it through asking gettin-to-know-questions instead of doing their work. Knowing the girl seem more important to some of them. Some guys are plain childish that by just one instant act, you get totally turned off but eventually get used to that but still get turned off everytime. haha. Some guys tease you till u cry ur eyes out but actually they have a crush on you and literally don't know how to express it. Stupid sometimes. haha. Some guys dont wanna talk about girls because they get so nervous and dont know wat to say. Immediately they think of standards and hoping to clinch more than a friend esp when every guy friend in their clan is attached. If not, they dont talk about girls in general and simply ogle and hang out at places where most girls go to. Damn, kinda loser-act. Some guys make frens with girls because they wanna be attached and cant find any girls appealing so they console a close girl friend whom of course, they should find appealing. Cz pretty girls are in one group! wahahaha... Haha. Some idealogy about being in a class of all boys. yea. boys not men. Cz i rarely come across someone who's gentlemanly in every means. Every means that surpasses my ideal of a man's behavior. haha. The end of statement.  "It aint the same with your affection. It's so hard to express this feeling cz nobody does it like you do. I cant explain this feeling, I think about it everyday..." I missed u today and definitely the days when you wont be/aren't there... my jpasm. =) mahal kitah~ |
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