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mardi, novembre 20, 2007
Photoshoot
9:58 PM
           Nakakamiss! =P Well, just wanna put up more pics. Lagi nlg words. -_-" Modeling, fyi, is actually harder compared to how simple it may deceivingly look. I gotta be more thick-skinned next time and that my hand, haha.. has to lose that tennis grip. =p boohoo.
The Conundrum in Me
7:35 PM
 The Conundrum in Me I lost the protagonist in me. I'm self searching for the person I was a week ago. I've moved back the things in my room to how it was. It doesnt really feel good cz all the memories come streaming in again. The only good it gave was my goodnite sleep. School. Im hating myself cz I take my own sweet time goin to school and I have yet to wake up from the reality that the teachers Ive last sem are different from now. They start on time and results are that Im missing on alot esp it's got to do with softwares and I dont have them at home. Drats Drats Drats. Im feeling lazy. I'm losing my self motivation. Im still hating the fact Im grounded and I cant adapt to the lifestyle mom wants me to. It's making me sick and unhealthy that other areas in my life are affected. Damn it. (wahahaha) I think Im gainin weight. Im being a pessimist. huhuhu... Im targetting every asset that I hate. Ugh.. Im losing all the sense I used to had... I hope the old me will come back.. I just need time to adjust. Lord, help me, Im finally learning that Myself is the biggest enemy. =( On the other hand, I think somewhere down the line, every one goes though this phase. I hope it wont repeat. Cz today is the start it shall end. I'll get back being reproductive and shape a better me. Gotta keep in touch with the goddess in me. =p. Take care ppl! Love y'all! =) *hugs* dimanche, novembre 18, 2007
Over the weekends
11:10 PM
Over the weekends. Not in good terms with my mom. She ground me. All of a sudden she wants to be updated about my every detail thing about my life. As meticulous as what time I start and end school everyday and even the schedule at work. After that, I'll just be at home and no where else. (damn it. ive to get used to this and i dont like it.) She didnt let me go for dance last Friday. UGH. Went out last Sat only bcz i was out with Kriz's mom, whom my mom tells all her probs and life to. (i guess thats why she allowed me. anovahyan.) And there it goes, aunt told me the things that my mom has said and planned. All i can say is, im sad and utterly somewat disappointed that my mom doesnt really trust me. And for goodness sake, Im 20 already! Aunt feels sorry for me. She thinks my mom is still old-fashioned about how she disciplines us. he doesnt understand that the past is completely different from now. I hope she can see that. so wat can I do? Just obey. heh.. I jive well with aunt and she even asked my mom if she could let me go for dance, but to no avail. UGH!!!! Hanged out a lil longer at the store after work today. I just don't feel like goin home nimore. I don't feel welcomed. I feel i am an illegal immigrant or something. for the past 3 days, we've no proper food at home. as in, no dinner as a family, together. Damn... even today and ive to just eat wat i was suppose to have for my break during wrk: a lowfat cranberry muffin. yesterday was pathetic, my dinner was a dollar instant noodle. didnt finished it. Noel txted us about not smsing while wrking this evening. I just replied, said im not guilty, joked and thanked him. He replied sayin he doesnt like "pasaways" and he has to talk to me during one of my shifts next week. OMG!!!! well, that literally made my world spin and right now, Im blo0dy worried!!! haha.. SHIET!!! I hope he didnt have to say that. Now, Im not looking forward for saturday. shiet... hehe... GAWD help me... Tmrw will be our class phototaking. man.. i wish it's with my year one classmates cz i prefer dem way more. anways, got no choice. finally, im feeling im accomplishing something and i cant wait to graduate! WEEE!!!! =) Chemae mite come this december! hoorays! oh yea, I miss the Macaraeg sisters na. Sana nasa US rin ako. haha. Miss u girls! Take care and watch ur weight! =D lundi, novembre 05, 2007
Pair
7:24 PM
Pairing|Hitching|Dating I've got this partner a.k.a colleague of mine at SB. we went home together last Saturday and as usual, we talked about our lovelives cz it seems, we have much common things about our not-so-potential-boyfriends/lovelife. Then it went down to the matter of her wanting me to know his cousin. (OMG!!!) She said that he is fair, like me and that he is mix: Jewish and Malay. He's about 20 or 21 years old and is looking for a long term relationship. (not that i am!) Also, most of the girls go after him cz he's filthy rich. They have a business on watches. (Hah! talk about punctuality!) She wants the best for her cousin and so... (wat more can i say? She wants me to date?? him.) She has been calling me last nite to let me know of her achievements and, well, ive eluded them till around afternoon. I decided to return her many miss calls and, voila! I was hit hard!!! That's all I really know. Then the next thing you know, she really did give my number to him. Even mentioned that "you have to run after her cz she aint the other way type." "she's hard to get." blah blah blah. Well, for my case. I thought she'd like this classmate of mine. ahahahaha... and fair enough, both of them have friendster. she already added him and ive to get his number since I don't have it. OMG.... UGH!!! heh.. Im like, nervous, excited, full of suspense and mystery cz I dont even know who the hell is her cousin. No pic or any online shit thing. UGH. DAMN IT.. I wonder how this thing is gonna work. Ive describe this incident to my friends as follows: "It's like I'm entering this posh restaurant with expensive menu and my partner is the waiter." (GrabeH!!!) Well, time can only tell. =S Our project... something which I'm really nervous about because it seems we have alot of metal cutting/bending/making a hole thingie and much of it is not done. We're doing a freaking dancing lion that's a robot. dimanche, novembre 04, 2007
A random write out
2:06 PM
One of my random write outs Sometimes life gets lonely and you wonder why Sometimes, you pity yourself when you're alone, sometimes, you just wanna be in your own world. Sometimes, you tend to be so free and you succumb to idling around... Sometimes you wish it was with somebody you're idling with, but not just anybody. Sometimes you wish that, that someone is there, so clear and vivid in your mind, but when you get conscious of the real world you're in, somehow, you end up just wishing, hoping, hinking if it'll ever come true. Your perk yourself up, to kick the emptiness in you, you keep yourself busy, you give yourself projects, learn more hobbies, feed yourself with knowledge, enlarge your circle of friends in every means... and then, you'd hope for something that might, or rather, should happen. You wish it could, but you could only dream. Have you prayed for it? No, I havent... and a part of me just don't want to... Can't really pinpoint the reason why... and so, I realised, that the best things in life are free and they excite you at the right time, place and reason. Sometimes you wonder about life with this seed of hope in you, in which you're trying to grow it well with much tender loving and care that'll flourish. Choice... something that's mind-bloggling, habitually real and in the end, something that's repeatedly acted in every step of our lives. So, make it good, smart and real, to make life more meaningful with lotsa zeal. -Karen Gutlay. le3nov2007. 1am.
3rd & 4th Nov '07
1:47 PM
Currently doing nothing at home. Suppose to do the following: 1030: mass at SVDP/ AVA. between 1100-1200: Jalan Raya with my SB partners. They are still expecting that I arrive. But anws, I don't wanna go alone cz I'm definitely going to feel left out. Joy was suppose to go too but she has been having probs with the Baju Kurong. *sigh* There's a mix of guilt in me and kinda like frustration cz, who on earth doesnt wanna get free money, free food, good company, free transport, loads of pictures and fun? I was suppose to have experienced them today but I chose to stay at home. I needed rest. (rest??? ahah... hah.) Karen's been out everyday of every month. Oh well... I hope next year won't be so bad. I'm just gonna be prepared on the questions they're gonna throw at me such as, "I thought u were coming....." Ugh.. Sowie, I broke your hearts and trust me, mine is already chipped for each and everyone of you, my beloved SB partners. (wish i cud get the pics Ashraf has on his cam. But I don't have any means of contacting him. I'll just wait for work day.) Just gets me thinking: my hopefuls. Sana kuya ko rin protective sakin. haha. I miss the way an elder bro cares for his younger sisters. They pick them up, call them up and ensure they're home on time and not out so late. Chilling with your siblings instead of your friends. Sharing your life with them.. but nah, I didn't get to experience those in a long run. And I miss the times it happened. but then again, it still can happen. *shrugs* jeudi, novembre 01, 2007
JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE -Take it from here
12:14 AM
JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE "Take It From Here" Sometimes, sometimes the world gets hard Oh na na na I'm gonna take it from there girl Don't you worry I wanna be your lake, for your bay And any problems that you have I wanna wash 'em away I wanna be your sky So blue and high And everytime you think of me I wanna blow your mind I wanna be your air So sweet and fair So when you feel that you can't breathe Ma, I'll be there I wanna be your answer, all the time When you see how I put your life before mine With no question When all the love feels gone And you can't carry on Don't worry, girl I'ma take it from here Just as sure as the sun will shine Every morning, everytime Don't worry, girl I'ma take it from here I wanna hold your hands Review all your plans I wanna make sure everyone of your dreams will stand I wanna be your broadway show on review (Why) So I can act out how God was when he made you I wanna be your lighthouse when you get lost I'll light a bright and shining path to help you across I wanna be your mother, wait See what I see And when you see that can't nobody hold you like me Cause I love you When all the love feels gone And you can't carry on Don't worry, girl I'ma take it from here (Take it from here, baby) Just as sure as the sun will shine Every morning, everytime Don't worry, girl (no no) I'ma take it from here And when there's no one there to hold And you realize the world is cold Don't worry, girl I'ma take it from here That's what I'm gonna do Just as sure as the sun will shine Every morning, everytime (Don't you worry, baby girl, baby girl) Don't worry, girl (Baby girl) I'ma take it from here (I'll take you whereever you want) Give me one reason why we should not be leaving This world is so deceiving, the time is now Let's fly away speeding Through the Garden of Eden Where all the sweet breathing of love surrounds When all the love feels gone And you can't carry on Don't worry, girl I'ma take it from here Just as sure as the sun will shine Every morning, everytime Don't worry, girl (no no) I'ma take it from here Give me one reason Why we should not be leaving This world is so deceiving The time is now Lets fly away speeding (We'll fly away) Through the Garden of Eden Where all the sweet and breathing Of love surrounds (Lets get away) When all the love feels gone And you can't carry on Don't worry, girl I'ma take it from here Just as sure as the sun will shine Every morning, everytime Don't worry, girl I'ma take it from here (I got somethin' I wanna tell ya baby) Love ain't always the way they write in books (No, no) See there's the good guys And also heartbreak crooks Your hearts the real book Just take a look inside 'Cause it's a colorful illustrated guide So there you go Don't worry I'll be the one To help you weather the storm I'll be there mami No matter what time No matter what place You can always count on me I'll take it from here --- Oh-eM-Gee!!! (OMG!!!) This song, when danced and heard from Teamvibe's show, I JUST FELL IN LOVE WITH IT AUTOMATICALLY!!!! GRAVEH!!!! ehehehe... just read the lyrics, and im sure u're gonna FALL!! FALL HARD! hahahaha.... =) wat more the freaking dance man!!! *Lovestruck* And hey, it has been an awesome week! Thanks to Owel, Andrei and my classmates for being there! =D Esp when Im bored! hahahaha.. tsktsk. =) Take care you guys! Stay gentlemanly! *CHEERS!* |
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The name's Karen. Currently residing in Singapore But her heart belongs in Baguio City She yearns to go to America where her relatives and frens live. Born on the 15th June She's a yellow fanatic. A friendly lass with a good heart. Really. =p Do tag my board yea? EVERYONE'S WELCOME!! ^_^
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