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lundi, février 09, 2009
not so subtle Feelings...
6:49 PM
Mite not be appropriate time to even blurt this out.. Im the sort who just have to let go, rather than to keep the feelings hidden. There are feelings I keep, be sane for some time or share and tell for those blows I can't take, Ive to pen them down, or here, just share with y'all, the selected ones, cz perhaps i just need some medicine for the pain. I'll have to be as little as subtle as this can get. It's a blog anws... and if the interest jabs you on, I could use a helping ear. If there's something that could change what ought to be changed, a treasure I have accepted to be a blessing, then let it be done. It kills me slowly as I take these sudden emotions slowly and surely. It couldn't've happened on the right timing, but it found its way in the wrong direction to be entertained, to be tackled, to be understandingly fruitless. It's so hard to just be with you for mere hours and sudden realization would knock me out telling me that I am not dreaming. I might have foreseen this as a time that is easy to adjust and carry on but I am fighting so hard to phantom the "why"s behind that feeling of maybe, longings or missing yous,each time we struggle to meet or arrange the little time we have. Time and time again, i find myself struggling. I have always succeeded in making myself strong, but over the time, against the privilege of meeting you once again, all those hard work of mine easily crumbles down.... and that cycle goes on again.... its so hard to start over and over again... but its a blessing to have to feel that pain for it never fails to make me stronger. Clinging on to every hope it eventually got worst and who knows, this treasure that I have come to love so dearly would eventually find its wits-end like all stories or rather, happy endings go. I fear to be like the story of Nicholas Sparks for their story is seemingly close to what is currently going on. It's painful to think that the 2 souls who were meant to be eventually just changes the destiny that fate had planned..... or maybe not. maganda na sana itong relationshp, alam mo yon, pero ngayon ko lang na realise na may chance parin palang mawala, kasi di ko naman iniisip yon... na realise ko lang bigla and im sadden about it. 2344.le9fevrier09 |
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