I had a somber day yesterday. Somber moments broke out in the early morning.
It didn't even get better as the hours ticked by. =,<>

I used to be that girl who shares her emotion. I guess through the years since the moment when my bestfriends left, I was a new me. Bottling my feelings and facing the world with a mask on my face. It practically rained the whole day so I was just stucked at home, in my room with music as my only company.

The weather didnt help me with my low-spirits. It's been so long since I felt that way. Lonesome and unloved. I had dental appointment at 7.10pm. I was instructed to bring my parents along. I asked mom and she said she's exhausted. I asked dad and he said he's got assignment. I was shattered... When I needed them, they werent there for me. I felt betrayed and alone...

I needed my parents to be there, a parent at least but no one wants to go. I even prepared early so I wont be late, but I was held back for a while because of that decision.

Yes... I was once again, late for 10 minutes. Told the clerk about my parents and the same reasons went to my dentist. I felt abashed...

It was raining when I went and back home... I took my time and felt the rain pouring at me. I felt I was not me....

"It's a good thing tears never show in the pouring rain As if a good thing ever could make up for all the pain

There'll be no last chance to promise to never mess it up again

Just the sweet pain of watching your back as you walk

As I'm watching you walk away

And now you're gone, there's like an echo in my head

And I remember every word you said It's a cruel thing you'll never know all the ways I tried It's a hard thing, faking a smile when I feel like I'm falling apart inside

And now you're gone, there's like an echo in my head

And I remember every word you said

For the first time, there is no mercy in your eyes

And the cold wind is hitting my face and you're gone And you're walking away (away)And I am helpless sometimes

Wishing's just no good 'Cause you don't see me like I wish you would "

School is startin for me... Well, that should keep me away feeling low.

New people, new environment, new course....

will there be a new me?

......