Your Frustrated Dancer. wahahaha. ;)

just a look back on my life.visited filsg and the videos were all compiled in a page.i saw the videos from my amateur dancing to a better dancer.im not that good, really, (I even labelled myself a "Frustrated Dancer" upon replays and hello, realization) but i see improvements in each performance.then, i thought about the times i had to juggle with in my life too -school, work, love, family, church, friends... every thing fall in pieces... beautifully.each aspect made me grow and i loved the girl who grew both inside and out.I wanna do better, cz i know i can. I know the obstacles to cross and I wanna see them flourish. thanks for the times, the memories oh Lord... I hope you'll shape me to the kind of person you want me to be.

I have been meeting alot of people with great testimonies and one of them is boyfriend's mom. All is good i say... the only thing to really dig deeper is education. I miss school now... (It has only been a week off from school) more than ever. I miss waking up to go school and be "welcomed" by the swarm of people who do the same thing just that in different directions in each one's life. The different classes, modules, teachers, crazy projects, tests, quizzes, exams and deadlines. Come on, every student has to go through them, yea? I want that to be accomplished soon so I can make my own money and give back to my parents. I just feel that time is ticking real fast. Im getting old and I dont necessary feel independent given my age. Dang. heeeh. Imperfections.

It is somehow a not deserving break for me. hehe. So i'll just maximise the unrelated school benefits: music, dance, starbucks, gym, church and family. I wanna reap something good out of them cz it will be the only time I can focus to these areas in my life while on break. woo.. talk about change... Change as the only thing being constant... I'd only drag these thoughts in my head but I dont want to anymore. It gets too tiring just simply thinking about it. I'm just glad I am learning to have more faith now, believe, do the right thing and leave it all to the Lord. =)